if there's one person who treats you so bad, there are more than a hundred who take care of you with love.somehow i feel like that yesterday.. when i'm sad and feeling down like crazy, i just realize there are sooo many people care for me and cheer me up :) i'm strong because of you all *hugs*
and i learned so much from Henry and Kyuhyun conversation in someone's fanfic (although this is fanfic, i believe they are thinking the same way too) about when you have a hundred haters yelled at you, you actually have a thousands more who stands behind you and give you strength :)
aaah.. talk about this thing makes me want to read that fanfic again, and here it is! maybe only ELF who will understand this story.. but however, just take the message in this story :)
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C E L E B R A T I O N (2)
This little grain of rice on my computer table is more entertaining than my life… Is this what life has come to for me? I’m entertained by a grain of shriveled up rice. Dear lord…
These were Henry’s exact thought that day. He was sure the grain of rice would do better than he did onstage. After hearing “Only 13” multiple times last night, he didn’t know what the next night was going to be like. He knew that he and Zhoumi weren’t that welcomed onstage, but this is what they both left home to do! To perform, to hear the crowds, to have fun onstage, to feel the accomplishment and rush from singing till their throats were sore, that’s what Henry left Canada for. But… many fans aren’t accepting it. How would that make you feel?
Hm… I wonder what my hyungs are up to. For the first time that day, Henry got up from the chair, and wandered out into the main part of the room the booked. Kyuhyun-hyung was sitting on the couch, laptop in tow, of course. Haha, hyung’s probably playing Star
Craft right now. The thought brought a smile to Henry’s face, at least someone’s happy. Moving along, Henry also saw Ryeowook
napping, looking like a five year-old, Donghae and Zhoumi having a drawing war, and Siwon reading an American newspaper.
Everyone seemed so content. So, how come he seemed like the only one so frustrated? Ow, all this worrying was giving him
migraines. Ouch.
Kyuhyun-hyung must’ve been psychic, or maybe he heard Henry grunt, because right then, he looked up from the game he was once
so focused on, and averted his attention to Henry.
“Henry, are you alright?”
“Honestly, no hyung.”
“Oh… Are you still frustrated from last night? Those fans had no right to do that, but you got to get over them and keep doing what you do, because you love it! Don’t let them get you down. Sometimes, they may seem crude, but remember for each fan that yells no, there’s about 500 more screaming for you.”
“Oh, hmm, I never thought of it that way.”
Right then, what Kyuhyun did was a miracle. He closed the laptop, and hopped up to his feet. He then announced that he was going to take Henry around the town, to help cheer him up. Well, that does sound like a great way to clear my mind. Getting to spend the afternoon with some fresh air, some shopping, and hanging around with a silly hyung. Sure, why not?
Slipping on his Nikes, and a jacket, both boys were soon out the door. Once out the hotel doors, with hats and glasses hiding their identities, the sun bounced off the glare on their glasses. With the cool post winter wind blowing their hair, Henry was soon beginning to relax, and feel the frustration he felt before go away.
“So, what do you want to do hyung?”
“Well, I was going to take you to the sights in this town. As you are well aware, I am an expert tour giver and seem to remember some great places for you to feel that stress go away.”
“Hyung, I have a question.”
“Sure Henry, what is it?”
“When you first joined the group, everyone was against you right? Like how they are with Zhoumi and I? Well, how did you deal with it? How did you deal with all those people yelling at you, those who wanted you offstage? Those who were angry at the band for accepting you, for those who even chose you? I can’t stand it anymore, because this wasn’t the way I imagined performing. This wasn’t the fans reaction in my mind.” Henry felt a tear slip down his face. Out of the corner of his eye, making sure hyung wasn’t looking, Henry brushed it away.
After a moment or so, with Kyuhyun looking like he was in deep thought, he finally answered.
“I never actually dealt with that fact. I was just as hurt as you are Henry, probably even more.” The answer surprised him. When Henry saw Kyuhyun’s debut, he always seemed like the mysterious member who didn’t care squat about what others thought of him. This was completely unexpected.
“I still remember all those faces who would scream 12 only, 12 only, over and over again. Yes, I was frustrated by it. I was going to pull my hair out over that fact. Then there came those who were made at the manager hyungs, and other members for accepting me. This is just like what they’re doing to you and Zhoumi, Henry. Yes it’s agitating and aggravating, but you have to move on. Leeteuk hyung told me what I told you before. It doesn’t matter what those other fans say, those who are yelling for you to get offstage, but all that matters are those behind them, whose quiet is louder than their screams. If they love what you do, then keep going on for them. Ignore those negative ones, and focus on that one fan. That’s how I keep going and that’s what’ll always keep me going.”
Henry was astonished by Kyuhyun’s response. He’s never seen Kyuhyun so serious, so determined. So, this is what was going on in hyung’s head when Star Craft wasn’t. This is what kept him going. This is what-
“Here, this is where I wanted to take you.”
Henry turned and looked at the sight in front of him. It was a view of the ocean. With waves crashing and the sunlight reflecting off the water. It was gorgeous and wonderful… and something indescribable. After hearing what hyung had to say, maybe getting back onstage tonight wouldn’t be so bad.
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keren sekali bukan? sayangnya gw gak tau siapa yang bikin, karena ini untuk voting lomba, jadinya nggak dikasih tau siapa yang bikin. for everyone who is the author, i want to say thanks and give credits to you :)
