Today, June 18th, 2016 I decide to delete my deviantart account.
I started deviant-ing around 2009, after graduated from high school and before college started.
I love DA because I always thought that I am an artsy person, and this place is the right place to express that. I met many people, mostly from abroad and only few people from my real life friends were my deviant friends. I was able to expressed myself that time. I was excited to go anywhere to take good pictures and my desire to draw rose up so high back then.
Actually my DA was ignored for years, until recently I found my own profile by accident and decided to logged in. I just realize that I posted some unworthy images and really ashamed with myself in the past haha
I cleaned up some of my submissions and some reminded me of my not-so-good past. It felt so bittersweet. Because I promised myself I want to change wholeheartedly, so letting go of my past is very important. Besides, I want to limit myself in social media from now.
7 years.
170 Deviations.
3.531 Comments.
14.419 Pageviews.
Good bye DeviantArt, you are good while it lasted :)
A good guy friend of me send me this video a while ago.
He is the kind of friend that shares da'wah with me, we only met once or twice a year but we always in contact. We shared each others love stories, hardship in life, and worries. No feelings involved, really.
I guess he wanted me to change my perspective about guys, that this should be what guys do if they are serious with me. No dating, no chatting, no bullshit promises, just go talk to my father first and see what happened next.
I melted everytime I watched this vid actually :'D Me and my weak heart. Haha.
Well if his intention of giving me this video was to change my standard of how to be treated by guys, I do admit that he succeeds.
First thing of the story, my friend liked this person. She told me this truth, and I was shocked at first. I actually know nothing about him except his name(not even how to spell his name) and eventhough we often met but we never talk.
Because my friend likes him, she started to talk about him all the time,and being excited everytime he was near us. As her friend, of course I was excited with this situation and trying to find a clue if maybe this guy interested in my friend. I started to look for him in the crowd, being a little spyish, and being super excited everytime I found fact that he stole a glance to us (assume it to my friend, of course).
But things started to change when my friend showed me his sns profile. This person has several sns platforms. I visited some and feel somehow familiar with his blog like I have read it somewhere. I read some post and found out that yes, I have read this blog a long time before, by incoincidence! I guess thats when I was looking for some information~which is provided on that blog. I happened to read some of his post too that time...thats why I feel familiar. Wow, I never know it was him all this time. Okay, trying to catch his character from his blog is one thing,but I am more mesmerized by the fact that he got scholarship from one of the coolest university ever. From that point, My curiousity about this guy reached far from the point where a friend helping her friend looking for some information about the guy she liked. I started to enjoy reading his blogs, hoping to find more facts about him, and the more I know a thing about him the more I fall deeper for his charm.
What is this...??
Is this Attraction..... or Adoration...?
Wait! Don't get me wrong. I don't like this guy in a romatical way (maybe not yet hahhahha who knows hahaha kidding). I mean, I keep supporting my friend with him, and I dont even hope I'll get a chance to know this person personally.
Its just that.... I'm amazed with some things that he did in his life. At the age of 25, he achieved a lot of things, things that I was once want to achieve in my life. Part of me was mesmerized, another part was jealous. The more I found fact about him, I can feel his intelligence, and that reminds me of my college friend when I was still active in campus. If he studied in my campus, I can see him in the same gank with them hahaha. Suddenly, I see him in different light, and whenever I meet him I feel so small and unworthy. lol.
His achievement in life questions me a lot about my life, to the point that I regret not doing so well in my study, because if I did I probably had the same experience with him. But what is it to regret? Besides, I'm not doing that bad actually ~ I am happy with what I did now. I just hope by knowing his story i'll be a better person. Be a person who help others in need. Period.
Oh, and a little updates:
- my friend did not like this guy anymore.....because she already has new boyfriend :|
- nothing happened between This Person and I.. okay?
Side Note:
I am confident writing about him in here because i dont see any chance for That Person to come by this blog :D
I'm trying to wrote this post as vague as possible, so ppl would be very curious of this guy XD
But if That Person happens to saw this, I hope he's oblivious... or stay calm and pretend nothing happen. Will you? hahahaha
Lets just make up our heart first, clear up our mind and problem in past, then whenever we're ready to be in each other lives, lets start again, be serious, and focus.
You know I always here. So take your time; and I'll take mine.
Masih ingatkah postingan yg ini mengenai Kontes Samsung 1 Day 1 Note? Kalo belum, baca dulu yaa ^^
So last week, Samsung_ID ngadain lagi kontes yang oke banget, dan masih nyambung sama kuis yang #1Day1Note kemarin. Kontes kali ini temanya #Note2Wish. Jadi ada 4 Tema wish yaitu #Gadget (Berhadiah Samsung Galaxy Note II), #Travel (Berhadiah trip liburan ke Bali), #HomeLiving (Berhadiah Voucher Index Rp 7,5Juta), dan #WellBeing (Berhadiah Membership Gym selama setahun).
Karena di kontes #1Day1Note kemarin gw gagal terus, gw pun merasa ini adalah second-chance yang ga boleh disia-siakan! Sebenernya bulan kemarin ada juga kontes serupa yang temanya #RaisaMusicalNote , tapi saat itu gw lagi hectic sama kuliah jadi nggak sempet ikutan >_<
Untuk kontes kali ini, gw memilih tema #Gadget. Kenapa? karena gw adalah seorang gadget geek yang ga pernah ketinggalan info gadget terbaru (I'm serious!) dan tentunya hadiah dr tema ini adalah Galaxy Note II yang notabene My Most Wanted Gadget Ever!
So, being creative myself, I made this post to be submitted as #Note2Wish contest. Its all about Galaxy Note II hehe :D Now, enjoy my wish below!
~Adrypink's 2013 #Gadget #Note2Wish~
1. A #Gadget to Capture my precious moment
Insya Allah, kalau gw bisa serius dan mengikuti jadwal, pada tahun 2013 nanti gw akan wisuda dan bergelar S.Sos dari Universitas Indonesia :) This will be my highest academic record and I'm sure I won't miss the chance to capture this precious moment! Galaxy Note II with its 8-Megapixel Camera will be the perfect one to capture this monumental scene of my life!
In the midst of coloring ^^
after coloring with watercolor pencil ;;
2. A #Gadget to keep in touch with my family, lover, and friends :)
Karena gw kehilangan handphone kesayangan gw yaitu Samsung Champ Hello Kitty edition tahun ini, alhasil hingga sekarang gw masih menggunakan handphone lungsuran ayah yang susaaah banget dapet sinyal. This is so bad because some of my friends can't contact me on important occassions :( I hope Galaxy Note II with its 4G LTE Network (well its still not available in Indonesia tho, but HDSPA is fast enough!) can connect me to all social media platform to keep in touch with my beloved people :)
3. A #Gadget that meet my multitasking needs
Watching videos and drawing at the same time is not impossible!
I am an ultimate multitasking person, and I can't focus just doing one thing.. So I really need a gadget that understand me in this case. Suatu hari, gw menemukan video ini di Youtube dan lirik lagu JKT48 muncul di background pikiran gw. "I want you.... I need you....."
I think this feature is the most innovative thing happened to a phone this year! Beda dari smartphone canggih lainnya yang bisa "multitasking" tapi ganti-gantian window, this awesome phone can do real multitasking! Bener-bener bisa menjalankan dua aplikasi di saat yang bersamaan, tanpa ngehang atau nge-lag! So damn useful! I imagine this thing happened to me.. Bisa browsing sambil buka twitter... Bisa nonton youtube sambil nyatet hal-hal penting.... life will be more efficient!
4. A #Gadget that can bring out the artist in me!
There is one great quote that I adopted in my life...
"Creativity can solve almost every problem. The Creative act, the defeat of habit by originality, overcomes everything."
-George Lois
#Note2Draw Name art challenge
Inspired by these quotes, the more I think about it.. the more it feels right. Gambar dan designing adalah salah satu passion terbesar dalam hidup gw. Drawing is my theraphy in life. I'm happy when I draw. Even that My drawing is stil so-so but I'm happy and thats enough. Because I'm not good at academic things, so I choose to be creative that I can say:
Being creative is my own definition of being smart.
Oleh karena itu, gw membutuhkan gadget yang bisa memberikan kepuasan dalam berkreativitas dan mendorong gw untuk tetap berkreasi. Drawing without paper, Coloring without Pencil colour. So far, Galaxy Note II with its S-Pen is the right answer to my needs. Definitely.
some of my drawing lately.. mostly for #1Day1Note contest
5. A #Gadget to record the moments and share it right away!
I love to record things I saw in life. Akhir-akhir ini, karena gw sering travelling dan nonton konser, ada banyaaak banget video menumpuk di harddisk gw. Sayangnya some of the videos cuma tersimpan begitu aja, tanpa di share sama sekali. Why? karena ribet harus mindahin dari kamera digital ke laptop, perlu di convert dulu kalau formatnya nggak cocok, dan butuh koneksi cepat dan waktu lama untuk upload ke youtube :( But having Samsung Galaxy Note II bisa jadi solusi karena Galaxy Note II bisa HD recording yang resolusinya hingga 1080p dan setelah direkam, syuuuuu~ dengan beberapa touch aja, video kita akan go public di youtube dan bisa ditonton ribuan orang! Bahkan kalau beruntung, bisa jadi artis youtube kayak Sinta-Jojo.. haha.. Problem Solved! ;)
6. A #Gadget to do a perfect selca!
Nggak bermaksud narsis, tapi selca (Self-camera) tentunya gak pernah lepas dari kehidupan sehari-hari kita :) Saat sendiri dan ingin mengecek penampilan, saat bersama teman se-gank dan mau foto bareng tapi gak ada yang bisa dimintai tolong, selca menjadi jalan keluarnya. Menurut gw ada satu hal penting dalam melakukan selca yaitu: Kualitas front camera! Kebanyakan smartphone saat ini yang dual camera hanya punya kapasitas front camera VGA atau paling tinggi 1.3 mp sehingga nggak maksimal :( tapi Samsung Galaxy Note II udah punya front camera dengan resolusi 1.9 mp!! uwoooow! Hasil selca bisa kinclong dan nggak burem ;)
7. A #Gadget to capture even the fastest moment exist!
I love watching Formula One Racing, and I dreamt of watching it live in a circuit someday. When this time comes, I don't want to miss the moment to capture the speed! Tapi kata orang-orang yang udah pernah nonton F1 secara langsung, butuh keahlian dan kamera yang canggih untuk bisa foto mobil F1 saat sedang balapan. Kalau dipikir memang susah sih foto objek yang bergerak 300km/jam, tapi gw rasa itu nggak impossible dengan Galaxy Note II. Karena kameranya nggak cuma punya resolusi yang besar, tapi fitur baru yang bisa capture 8 foto secara continuous dalam 1 detik! How awesome is that?!
ok i know the F1 car looks weird here >_<
8. A #Gadget that is environment-friendly!
Because I love to draw and write, I consume so much paper in my life :( Gw baru aja menemukan fakta bahwa butuh sekitar 22,4 Juta m2 luas hutan yang ditebang untuk memenuhi kebutuhan kertas setiap tahunnya di Indonesia. Bahkan dari tahun 1990 hingga 2000 dataran rendah yang hilang di pulau Sumatera 65-80%nya ditebang untuk memenuhi kebutuhan kertas kita :( (Data ini didapat dari wwf.co.id disini )Dalam kasus print dan copy, kita bisa memanfaatkan kertas bolak-balik, tapi saat menggambar nggak bisa bolak-balik:(
I feel bad and feel the urge to reduce this.. Gimana dong caranya supaya gw tetap bisa berkreasi tapi nggak perlu mengkonsumsi kertas secara berlebihan? Tentunya fitur S-Memo di Samsung Galaxy Note II bisa jadi alternatif utama :) Dengan ini gw bisa menggambar sebebas apapun dengan S-Pen, dengan pilihan warna unlimited, nggak perlu beli crayon, pensil warna, spidol, dan terutama kertas! So, I can use paper (and money of course ;) more wisely in the future :)
I believe there are still many awesome features in Galaxy Note II, but I can only discover it if I have it in real life ..
In the end, let's being simple and conclude all the wish above:
I hope my #Gadget #Note2Wish will come true in 2013. Amien :) HOPE . PRAY . TRY
Note:
All photos courtesy of Myself ^^ Made with all my heart, mind, and full efforts~ I'm not really good at drawing the hands part but i hope its fine. Will keep learning! ^^
Its been a long, long, long, long time since my last post.
I think everytime I opened my blog I only changed the themes but I havent updated anything.
There are so much thing I want to share about what's happening this year....which is the most FUN year I ever had! but i don't know where to start :/
I want to share stories about the journey to my dream city, some concert, some cooking experience....but...but...well okay, i'll start working on it >_<
Please wait a little bit, imma going to write some entries soon!
Lets just make up our heart first, clear up our mind and problem in past, then whenever we're ready to be in each other lives, lets start again, be serious, and focus. 
Because I love to draw and write, I consume so much paper in my life :( Gw baru aja menemukan fakta bahwa butuh sekitar 22,4 Juta m2 luas hutan yang ditebang untuk memenuhi kebutuhan kertas setiap tahunnya di Indonesia. Bahkan dari tahun 1990 hingga 2000 dataran rendah yang hilang di pulau Sumatera 65-80%nya ditebang untuk memenuhi kebutuhan kertas kita :( (Data ini didapat dari wwf.co.id disini )Dalam kasus print dan copy, kita bisa memanfaatkan kertas bolak-balik, tapi saat menggambar nggak bisa bolak-balik:(
