A Song For You

The Last Goodbye - James Morrison

I don't believe you
And I never will
Oh I can't live by your side
With the lies you've tried to instill
I can't take anymore
I dont have to give you a reason
For leaving this time
Coz this is my last goodbye

It's like I hardly know you
But maybe I never did
It's like every emotion you showed me
You kept well hid
And every true word that you ever spoke
Was really deceiving
Now I'm leaving this time
Coz this is my last goodbye

I've gotta turn and walk away
I don't have anything left to say
I haven't already said before
I've grown tired of being used
And I'm sick and tired of being accused
Now I'm walking away from you
And I'm not coming back

24

I feel so blessed.

I'm starting the 24th of October in my life with a sweet surprise from my lovely family.

I came out from my room in the early morning expecting nothing but surprise! all my family was there with my fav Tous les Jours strawberry cream cake.

my mom waiting for me to came out from my cave lol isnt she's so sweet?

tadaaaa! surpriseeeee! Happy birthdayyyyyyyy!! to me :')

Two person who always beside me from my zero til 24th

my 84 year old grandma help me blow the candles. i'm so happy she's healthy

my family that celebrate my bday early in the morning~ minus my big brother who took this photo

To be honest, I spent the night before feeling miserable with my life. Things just got bad for me from the last day so when I came out from my room getting surprise from people I loved the most, its hard not to hold back my tears. After that I went to work feeling contented decided that nothing can ruin my day today. Tbh I did not know whether my coworkers knew that today is my birthday or not, I hope they didn't, and the fact that no one really talk to me that day I almost thought I successfully hide my birthday (something I always wish, because i feel awkward with my own birthday).

But I guess I'm wrong.

Almost at the end of the work, my colleagues told me we have a meeting for a video project which I took part of. So I attended the meeting but only four people including me was there. My partner Zudha telling us he had a video that is good for inspiration and when he played it..

MY JAW DROPS AND I CRIED

THAT WAS JUST SO SWEET

BOOM! the doors open and my Deputy, Captain Yoyo, barge in with pizza and candles on it. All of my friends in my unit came in and sing happy bithday to me. I cried a joy.

Sudden pizza partyyy

My precious coworkers.. all of them countes as my best friend!

A SLICE OF PIZZA FOR MY BOSS WHO HURTS MY FEELING THE DAY BEFORE LOL

That just awesome, getting surprise party is one of thing in life I never expected, simply because I usually the mastermind behind my friend's surprise party, so I often dont get the chance of surprise party itself looool but for this one, I would say thank you so much for my soulmate in office, Ummi who planned this all and sacrifice her lunch time to bought the pizza in a very far place, Mba Sari, Mas Zudha for the touching video, Captain Yoyo and Captain Lucky, and everyone that acted so well I never thought

Dear God, all my life I always surrounded by loving people who cherished me as I cherished them, and I couldnt be more thankful for that.

That night, I spent my birthday dinner with udell, eating spicy ramen i'm craving for the past few days. I came back home around 8 and found a flowery-wrapped gift in front of the door, I picked it up and it turned out a gift from nita and alisha. Too bad they already left when I came home so I cant meet them personally to give them hugs and thankies hiks

Anyway guess what? This is the first time for the past few years that I got so many presents for my birthday! I'm not really into idea that my friends (except my very close one) will even spent a time to buy me a birthday gift, but I guess I just despised myself because apparently they did.

Hey, I'm not bragging, but I just so happy and I want to show my gratefulness through this post (eventho i doubt if theres any person who read this anyway) here is some of the presents I got for my 24th birthday!

A flowery watch that I wanted;; thank you udell and thank you Annisa for helping him get this thing

SUPER JUNIOR 7TH ALBUM! 

Flowery scarf from the lovely mba santy :3

Flowery cardigan from my super sweeeeet sista Fina in London, she's really sweet i'm melting!

This one seriously made my day! PINK FRYING PAN for God's Sake its a thing i always wanted!

To sum it up, my 24 birthday was awesome. Its more than I can imagine. Just a day before I'm feeling so sad and down and thought that life's getting so hard on me, but the next day people treat me so well, giving me much love in my birthday, like they are telling me that I have family and friends who will help me getting through my hardest days.
I believe this is also a lesson to learn in my new age, about accepting a failure, not to break down but be strong, and a reminder from Allah to the comfort zone I was in. It is my wish to be wiser and happier and to make everyone around me smile proudly of me :)

ah.. I almost forgot to post these things! Creative birthday message in Social media from my friends and family :)

Maybe why

I dont know why but I tend to write out my feelings when I'm sad.

To sum it up, I wrote this blog mostly when I'm sad or desperate. thats why its not interesting to read lol

New baby♡

Finally.. Dressing table yang gw idam-idamkan sejak dahulu jadi jugaa~♥

Belinya pake uang bonus kerja pertama dr kantor, jd lbh berasa puasnya ^^ 

hmm sbnrnya gw blm dapet bonus sih krn masih PKWT, tapi krn unit gw super baik bapak2nya jd yg PKWT dan outsource dapet saweran jg 8D

Say whaaat? Alhamdulillah~~😊 

0505

Too many feelings.

To be frank, there were many things I want to do today. I've planned so much things for you, but it turned out I couldnt do any of them.

Well, We humans can plan, but in the end its God's fate that will decide.

and what is actually the fate that God choose for us?

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Iseng aja

Jadiiii ceritanya ini mau nyobain lensa barunya akang.. ternyata WOW sekali hasilnya

besok foto lagi aaah. hehehehehe

Pipory turned 5 today!

Just remember its March 31 and its My Pipory's 5th anniversary! I remember you being a surprise gift from my daddy and can't tell how happy I am when I have you. I didnt treat you so carefully that you got lot of stratch in your body, i'm sorry; but you know I love you right.

Thank you for always be my side-when i'm in stress from national exam to undergraduate thesis, when i'm happy, when i'm sad, when i'm in love or when i'm broken hearted- I guess you are the one who witnessed it all.

Even if your battery was kind of.....drowned right now but its never cross my mind to replace you with any other gadget.

Love you pipory! Long last!
Xoxo your master

Call me what?

Sejak gw kerja di garuda, gw jd punya (lebih) banyak nama panggilan. Gw sebenernya udah terbiasa denger orang salah nyebut nama gw, entah jd ardiana, andriana, audri, adrian, ardian, dan banyak lagi. Gw sendiri sadar nama gw agak menyulitkan untuk dipanggil, dimana gw juga sebenernya canggung ngomong "adry" saat lg kenalan. Nah di lingkungan kerja gw sekarang, krn kerjaan gw berhubungan dengan banyaaak orang lain (terutama pilot) hal-hal seperti ini pun gw rasa nggak bisa terlewati begitu aja. Oke, mari kita list beberapa nama panggilan gw di lingkungan kerja gw saat ini.

1. Mbak Adri. Bisa dibilang ini  yang paling normal, super normal. Hampir majority of the pilot (90%) manggil gw dgn sebutan ini. Kalo pilot yg udah lebih tua atau udah deket sm gw, biasanya cukup dengan Adri.

2. Audry. Sbnrnya cuma Capt. Didi (Deputy B744) yg keukeuh bgt manggil Audry, dgn alasan Adri itu nama cowok, mendingan Audry aja, biar kayak penyanyi (maksudnya Audi) dan biar nama gw gak sama kayak seorang POI yang agak mengesalkan di fleet gw lol

3. Ana. Jujur gw jaraanggggg bgt dipanggil ana, dan penasaran gmn rasanya dipanggil Ana. Ternyata agak awkward karena gw sendiri kurang aware sm penggalan kata "ana" di nama gw. Untungnya yg manggil ini cuma 2 orang, yang satu fo yg punya nama mirip bgt sm gw (mungkin krn itu dia cr panggilan lain haha) dan satu captain yg cukup baik dan dekat sm gw.

4. Yolanda. Bisa dibilang ini panggilan yg paling unik dan nyeleneh. Orang yang menciptakan nama panggilan ini ke gw dan mempopulerkannya adalah Capt. Hilman Nuh. Jadi begini asal mula ceritanya. Suatu hari, Capt. Hilman Nuh mampir ke kantor sesudah simulator. Saat itu, gw lagi agak sibuk ngerjain sesuatu dan kurang ngeh sama sekitar gw. Rupanya, pada saat itu Capt Hilman berusaha untuk manggil gw "Adri.. Adri.." tapi karena gw gak nengok-nengok, beliau kesel dan akhirnya manggil gw dengan sembarang nama. Pas beliau manggil gw "Yolanda..!" SECARA NGGAK SENGAJA GW MALAH NENGOK. Daaaan dimulailah era nama baru gw adalah YO-LAN-DA. Kenapa Yolanda? karena saat itu lagi ada angin topan Yolanda dan itu nama pertama yang diinget Capt Hilman. Hahahahaha kocak sih. Untungnya, yang manggil gw Yolanda cuma Capt Hilman dan sohibnya Capt Perisdo yang saat itu ada disitu. Nama panggilan ini, masih berlanjut hingga sekarang dan entah sampai kapan :')

5.  Ding2. Oke panggilan ini cuma digunakan sama ummi, satu-satunya teman se-recruitment dan best friend gw di garuda. Alasan dia manggil ini adalah karena mau ngikutin bokap gw (this is how my dad called me anyway). Selain ding2, ada juga satu orang yang manggil gw din2. Well this one, i guess, is the closest term of my name ever called by people outside my closest family. Entah apa intensinya, yang jelas this one left me undescribeable feeling, yang gatau arahnya kemana (eaa #curcol)

Jadi begitulah kisah gw mengenai nama panggilan. Somehow hal-hal kecil kayak gini membuat gw merasa hidup gw nggak monoton banget and kind of interesting. Karena yg membuat hidup lebih berwarna adalah saat kita menikmati kisah hidup kita sendiri kan? and after that, we'll be more grateful to God :)

Cheers!

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Someday

*Saat acara lamaran sepupu di bandung*

Tiba2 ayah mendekat, merangkul dan berbisik,
"Kapan nih ayah bikin acara kyk gini di rumah?"

Me: "............"

Akan ada saatnya nanti, cepat atau lambat, dan semua pasti akan indah pada waktunya. :)

Lets just

Lets just make up our heart first, clear up our mind and problem in past, then whenever we're ready to be in each other lives, lets start again, be serious, and focus.

You know I always here. So take your time; and I'll take mine.

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시간을 생각하지 않는다... 천천히 두 개월 되었어요. 우리가 동일한 대상을 찾을 때까지 얼마나 오래 걸을 것인가? 그냥 친구 만 안돼.. 싫어요😶

Curcol di pagi hari

*Percakapan di mushola pagi ini*

Ummi: ding facial yuk
Gw: gak mau ah mii.. sakitt
Ummi: gapapa biar kinclong ding
Gw: Mi, udah cukup hati gw yang sakit, gausah muka gw ikutan sakit2 juga
Ummi: .......

내 마음이 아프다 진짜ㅠㅠ

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Cruel Reminder

Thank you Mr. Mario for the cruel reminder. 

For a while, I thought I should fight for it if its worth it. 

But now I just leave it to God and our fate.. 

Besides, I've been tawaqal and ikhtiar for this, whatever result come out later, that must be the best for me :)