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focus.

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because i can't give up before even trying.

Just some random pics i found in my long-lost flashdisk

Yesterday i found my flashdisk that have been missing for years! It contains lots of things from my college era, around year 2012. It does bring back some memories, so i want to post some of them that i found interesting in here. The pictures taken below mostly taken from my former galaxy tab with camera360 (I was obsessed with that app that time lol) so it has similiar filter effects xD

my room before i re-decorated it in mid-2012. It was considered tidy, because i usually messed up my room only 2-3 days after cleaning it haha. 

The padlock i specially prepared to be locked in Namsan Tower.. haha too bad few months ago when i went to namsan tower again i couldn't find that lock :( but i managed to hang another one..  another lonely padlock haha when will i ever hang a couple-padlock there zzz

Packing for seoul ~ i remember how excited i was that time, its a "going to my dream city for the first time" feeling! in fact, packing is stressful cause its always hard to choose what to wear and what not to bring.

The pink-black vintage luggage is my ultimate travelmate ~ meanwhile the polkadot one is anggi's luggage i bought in seoul. i remember i took this pic in incheon airport before going home.

7년간의 사랑

처음엔 친구로
First as friends
다음에는 연인사이로 
Then as lovers
헤어지면 가까스로 친구사이라는 그 말 정말 맞는데
And its true what they say: when you break up, its hard to stay friends 


Its kind of irony.. 
This song is one of my fav Kyuhyun song which i listened more than hundred times.. 
I always feel so blue everytime i heard this song, mainly because i was appreciating his soothing voice, but now i'm swinging by the mood because i focus more to the lyrics.. which slaps me hard..
But of course i'm not as pathetic as the person in those lyrics..

I always thought what if i could turn back time and back to 7 years ago, to that place, to that occassion and say NO TO WHATEVER HAPPENED so i can save my life right now...Will things really change?
But then I realized that maybe even if i said NO that time i will say YES the other time, maybe with other person, in other place, but still ended up feeling the same right now. 
Knowing my personality, i know it would be like this hahahaha
7 years is not a short time. So many things happened, and i did not want to regret it cause hey! we all need a good time in our youth, no matter how bitter it will ended up, right?

I just hope i can have my bestfriend back.